You're naked inside your fear
You can't take back all those years
And shots in the dark from empty guns
Are never heard by anyone
Never heard by anyone

You don't fuck with me,
cuz i will fucking kill you.

That used to be my attitude. I would build scenarios in my head where people mess with me, and decide in my head what I would then say to them, so they will regret messin with me. I never thought of physically harming anyone, but I had the most evil words. They were never targetted at anyone in my head, it was more like "Don't talk like a fuckin parrot, ____". I would find inspiration from arguments I have, I hear of, or see on TV.

Am I beginning to sound really pyscho?

Haha.. Point is, this was my wall of defence mechanism that I had ready, ready to throw at people whom I thought were out to hurt me. And I fully utilized thhis mechanism while I was with my ex ex, and it sucessfully ruined our relationship. Haha.. These days I'm trying to learn, to change, to be the wimp when it comes to confrontation. To lose and be okay with it.

I'm trying..

=)