Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

Suddenly it all feels like a little too much. My face feels like its moulded into a frown, and my dreams are always about the shit that I worry about before I sleep. Old problems and memories come back to me, robbing me of the already rippling peace of mind I have tried my best to shape with my own hands. The same dilemmas pound at the back of my head, only this time I face them alone. It's not even a choice anymore, but a mind to make up. Feelings to kill, memories to forget. I don't wanna dictate the flow of my thinker, but if this goes on I'll go insane. I feel like a captive within myself, and what has happened to me these past few months or year. Is this the pain of growing up? Or is it never gonna stop. It feels like something had died and I am getting used to its death. But nothing would ever be the same again. Nothing would return back to normal. Normal. What is normal?

argh. let's go running.