sometimes it feels like the world's on mah shoulders.
everyone's leanin on me.
sometimes it feels like the world's almost over.
but then.
she comes back to me.

Uhm had a good day, buying stuff with Nick. I feel a lil unsatisfied,
but well. With my cash flow, I cud NEVER feel satisfied shopping.

Just to let things outta my system, and hope tt this reaches him.
I would like to tell someone. That I am sorry..
My reason for losing my cool with you was that it was rough for me then.
My grandma had just passed away when you brought stuff up.
I din have the patience for anything but my family.
Even so, I was still at fault and had no excuse for throwing
my shit onto you.

Why I am I not telling this to you personally.
I don't want to change things. Though it is unfriendly and weird between us,
at least we don't mess things up this way.
I don't know what you are thinking or feeling, or what is going on in your life,
and I don't want to know for now.
Just do be happy. I know you want that for me too.

And in case you are wondering, I am doing okay now.
Maybe not roaring good and partying mah life away. hurh.
But sorting things out and trying to do better in skl.
THO I DID MISS OUT ON CDS AND MAY HAVE TO COME BACK DURING SIP.
argh.
Despite feelin a lil empty sometimes,
I do like being single and carefree. I watched sunrise alone once ya know!
Haha.. Okays. Won't forget ya.

I act like shite don't phase me,
inside it drives me CRAZY.
my insecurities could EAT me alive.