qi guai.

Haha. Kat made a comment a few days back about me.
"there was never a minute when there wasn't a guy in your heart, eh?"
And.. It's true. I HAVE to have somebody to think of,
to wonder about.. To want to tell things to.
Haha.. Why hah? Kinda dependent.
This is the first time I'm thinking about a guy who is attached tho.
Damn.

Haha.. We all need to escape from one thing or another from time to time.
I wonder how can I escape from this man.

I was listening to this soundclip that he sang and sent to me awhile ago.
Hahaa.. There are things I can laugh at,
but those are the same things I am crying about now.

I was thinking.. If there wasn't another girl in his life,
would I know how much I love him?
Would I be so hurt to be apart from him?
Probably not. So final, ya know?
Anyways I hope things work out for them la.
If not all this pain for me and him quite damn pointless le.

More people read my blog than I realize.
And I pray, that those people who hear about him and me from my blog
don't judge dennis. Remember that you are only hearing my side of the story,
and I, of course, have very biased views.

Life is more than a failed relationship. -Wise man Guo Wei.
Haha.. Optimism is something that is super rare to me now,
I hope this lasts. I am terribly weak emotionally,
and fall real hard. It's gonna take me a long time to really forgive Dennis,
and for me to love someone for real again.
Different people need different amount of time to heal, I guess.

But eventually, it will happen.. Won't it?

=]