I am thankful to have someone to go to when I need him..
But why doesn't he understand?
That is a question I actually know the answer to..
But I don't agree with or understand the answer..
How does it feel? To hear that you are the one making life difficult for him?
The mere fact that I am with him makes my life easier to live..
We quarrel, yes.. But.. It still feels.. I don't know..
I so want to let him go right now,
he seems so xin ku..
But yet I know it is the wrong decision and a rash one.
I want to stick arnd and make things better.
But who can trust that I will make things better?
Even he would scoff at tt.
Even I will.
He doesn't understand me..
I have accepted that as a fact.
I have decided that i will turn to other people for comfort and understanding that I so so need right now.
How do I make things better?
I am not thinking straight..

Laugh at me, world....